Oh please, this is all that I've got.
I've never been so okay with drowning in all of my thoughts.
I've never felt so lost.
I've never felt so fucking lost,
can you show me the way out?
My mind is racing, and I can't seem to cope with the loss of you, it's true.
I've been stuck here for four fucking years, and it's something that I'm not used to.
This isn't real, I constantly tell myself.
This is a feeling that none of you should have to feel.
What the fuck, I just don't know what to do anymore.
But without you here, I have nothing at all to live for.
I know, I know I should've been there.
But I was just too scared.
Seeing you lose air, was just something that I couldn't bear.
If only you knew exactly how I was feeling, maybe I'd be able to explain.
Oh no, don't tell me that things will get better.
This almost killed me, but to the rest, it doesn't matter.
To all of you, it never even mattered.
I guess it doesn't matter.